履行 + 坚守

曾经，
我为自己许下承诺。
如今，
我却达不到我要的程度……

是时候履行我所答应的事情了……


直到 PMR trial exam 我都不会再 online 。
这一次我一定能坚守我说过的话。

谁说人类除了擅长颓废，
做什么都不对？
我偏要证明这句话错了。

颓废之后能够过的更有意义。

3very dAy iS fulL 0f h0p3~

距离是美感, 也是智慧

两情若是久长时,
又岂在朝朝暮暮.


喜欢这句.
去年在 MSN 看见了这首诗,
我还以为那人的文诗怎么会那么棒.
原来是 张曼娟 写的.

我赞同她写的文章.
只要彼此是相爱的,
又何必急在一时去拥有或整天像麦牙糖一样呢?
给彼此多一些空间不是更好吗?
就像 S.H.E 的 半糖主义 ,
" 若有似无的甜, 才不会觉得腻. "

给彼此多些空间吧!
你才会发现,
你究竟会有多想念对方.

寻找快乐的方法?

日本著名的文艺理论家厨川白村说：“文学是苦闷的象征。”，

因为忧郁的人特别敏锐,
所以能说出常人没有的感动.

沮丧的时候抬起头,
化忧郁为力量吧!

刘 墉

我蛮认同这句话。

或许因为忧郁的人特别容易多愁善感，

因此感触也较多吧……

我觉得人偶尔忧郁也挺好的。

至少，

你能体会你平时体会不到的感受。

平时太乐观，

把身边的美好事物都认为是生活的一部分，

我们往往就与感动擦肩而过。

那样的日子，

虽然快乐，

但找不到感动。

人，

还是感性些好。

^^

BBQ~

感觉上，
我好像爱上了 BBQ 。
我喜欢那气氛和场景。


当然，
前提是要有朋友陪同，
否则，
与一群陌生人一起烧烤，
想和他们制造话题，
别人有未必会理你。
所以往往很安静地烧完一只鸡翅膀，
就到一旁静静地独自享用。
那种感觉很不好受。


BBQ 最棒的当然是坐在烤炉旁边烤边吃边聊天。
很自然的，
话题三句不离食物。
“烧焦了！”
“快翻！”
"Pass honey 过来一下， thank you!"
哈哈~


我发现原来参与烧烤会也能学会很多东西。
譬如：
如何插鸡（ 别想歪哦~ ）、
如何知道食物熟了否（ 虽然还不是很清楚……但最准的方法就是咬一口试试看，那肯定准啦~ o(∩_∩)o 如果还不知道……那你的舌头可以送去维修了…… =P ）、
如何起火（ 虽然我还没学会…… ）、
如何... 等等等等...


BBQ 让我长了好多门知识哦~
哈哈~
我已忘了我参与过多少次烧烤会,
但我想不下 3 次吧~
别笑哦!
虽然我知道不是很多次...
但只要拥有快乐的回忆,
哪怕只有一次,
那也就足够啦~
^^


我真的真的好希望,
PMR 之后,
那 Geografi trip 能够办得成.
去 Cameron Highlands ,
3 天 2 夜或 2 天 1 夜都好,
我们这班一起围着烤炉 BBQ ...
火锅也是不错的选择~~~
=D


希望这 trip 能够成功咯~

挣扎

发现……
我陷入挣扎中……

脑里都是悲观的思想，
但心里却一直鼓励、开导着自己。

原来，
悲剧与光明只有一线之差。

最终，
哪方会获胜呢？

一个决定能影响我的一生。

其实，
仔细看看，
我的生命线不长。
到后来，
许多线纵横交错，
当然还是连接了。

所以，
我的决定呢？


子雯，
加油吧……

呆……

不想说话，
不想笑，
我只是想一个人，
静静的望着天空……

就只是静静的……






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突然，
好想在瞭望无际的草原上，
痛快地淋一场雨。
愿所有烦恼都随着雨水流走。

或者，
都与世无争的乌托邦，
过着最原始的生活。

原来，
痴，
呆，
也是一种幸福。

For you are not alone

The world is so big;

the sky is so wide;

the road that we'll go for our life is so long;

the choices that we need to choose are too many;

the problem that we have to solve in our life are no end;

so,

why don't we appreciate the time we are together?

Too many things are waiting for us in future.

But the time will not hold on for us.

What can we do,

just to enjoy every second.

We are always together.

Though we're far apart.

You are not alone.

I'll be there when you need a hand when you fall down;

I'll be there when you need an ear to listen to your problem;

I'll always be there just when you need me.

For you are not alone.

I'll not alone too because of you always by my side.

So,

don't let all of us be lonely even a second.

I always know,

I love you,

you love me,

we are happy family~ =P

Friends...

Recover?

Depression?


Before?


Now?


Always?


or Seldom?



Maybe since my secondary school life. I also know it. Just never say to others even my family or friends. No even one. Just myself. Sometimes, I feel lonely easily.

Friends always say I'm emo. Maybe~ Haha~ In primary school, erm... I thought I'm not emo... It should be called quiet? At least that was what I think. I was quite happy those time even during UPSR preparation. Cause my friendship was pure... All of us were simple... Just friends, just a play companion... Well, we can't go back. It had passed. Just accept it.

As a conclusion for my primary school's life was happy, simple, and no worry.

Secondary school's life? Maybe still pure, but it had been added with many things. Not only friendship. Many mistrust... Just because of the word - TRUST. What does it actually mean? Whatever we also can share among us? Problems? Funny things? Secrets? I remember I told a friend before, secret can be divided into two: one can be shared among friends; one is kept under the depth of our heart. I just can say what you know is what I can tell you. It has over my limit. I only left some unspeakable secret in my heart. Cause I think those are mine. Can't be shared with anyone. That's all. Maybe one day in future I'll tell you but not now. Cause it hasn't over or solved. So it's not the matter of TRUST or not.

As a conclusion for my secondary school's life till now, do you think I can be simple again?

Depression starts coming to me. Those days were hard to go. But finally, I've solve it myself. Hope it's really over...




I wanna be happy always;
I wanna keep on smiling.
Those I want are just simple.
But,
can I do that?



Happy ya~ This is a promise o~ ^^

Heart - cold

Studying Form 2 Sejarah... Actually, Sejarah not that hard that I imagine. Just need to remember by hard... But is it 3 hours enough for memorizing 3 bab? I just can try my best...


Don't know why recently feel so weird. Everybody is changing. They are different from before. Friends, they have their problem to worry... Academic, friends, or love...


I just realize that how lonely I am. When I have problem, I don't know wanna tell who; when I am boring, I don't know wanna find who. Just feel that they are not free to talk with me. I just can sit alone there. I don't know what I really want... I'm tired... When I was small, I had many dreams and I believed that one day I could make all the dreams come true... But when I am grew, I feel that my mind changed. May be influenced by others; may be I think that they are impossible ( but I believe that "nothing is impossible" too. ) . I don't know. I'm really confuse... I know, the most problem is myself. I must change it before I can make my dreams come true. I'll try my best... That I always tell myself recently...




May be my heart caught a cold.

We Are The Children

* I love the song... I love it... *




We are the world
Written and composed by michael jackson and lionel richie (use for Africa)
Lionel richie
There comes a time when we heed a certain call
Lionel richie & stevie wonder
When the world must come together as one
Stevie wonder
There are people dying
Paul simon
And its time to lend a hand to life
Paul simon & kenny rogers
The greatest gift of all
Kenny rogers
We can't go on pretending day by day
James ingram
That someone, somewhere will soon make a change
Tina turner
We are all part of gods great big family
Billy joel
And the truth, you know, love is all we need
Chorus:
Michael jackson
We are the world, we are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So lets start giving
Diana ross
There's a choice were making
We're saving our own lives
Michael & diana ross
Its true well make a better day
Just you and me
Dionne warwick
Send them your heart
So they'll know that someone cares
Dionne warwick & willie nelson
And their lives will be stronger and free
Willie nelson
As God has shown us by turning stones to bread
Al jarreau
So we all must lend a helping hand
Chorus:
We are the world, we are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So lets start giving
Bob dylan
There's a choice were making
Were saving our own lives
Its true well make a better day
Just you and me
Michael jackson
When youre down and out, there seems no hope at all
Huey lewis
But if you just believe there's no way we can fall
Cindy lauper
Well, well, well, well let us realize that a change can only come
Kim carnes
When we stand together as one
Chorus:
We are the world, we are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So lets start giving
There's a choice were making
We're saving our own lives
Its true well make a better day
Just you and me
We are the world, we are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So lets start giving
There's a choice were making
We're saving our own lives
Its true well make a better day
Just you and me
We are the world......

无言 + 无奈

领成绩册时，级任老师竟说我 "banyak bercakap" 。这是我有生以来第一次被说爱讲话。但当时我却无言以对，只能以笑带过。是因为我心虚吗？或许吧……今年我真的太多话了。该说的和不该说的都口无遮拦地从嘴里倒出来。反省，我真该反省。

改变？每个人都在改变。好的，坏的都有。自己是最清楚的那一位。有时候，不是身边的人变了，而是自己与别人熟了，话题多了，了解深了，圈子大了，不知不觉中，自己也就变了。

今年，我忘了跟自己说过多少次，别再受别人的影响，找回自己。可扪心自问，我办得到吗？天时地利都不属于我。PMR？真没有把握去应战。8A？得再加把劲儿。是我把事情简单化了吗？还是人类总爱把每一样东西都看得那么重？今年，PMR好像不曾被我当一回事。我到底怎么了？我以前的理想往哪儿去了？消失了？还是觉得遥不可及？别人做到的，难道我不能吗？

坚持，努力，奋斗，意志，鼓励。
这是我需要的。

看透

我终于领悟这世界的残酷。

什么“改过自新”，“人非圣贤，孰能无过”，一堆废话。

做错了，就是事实，永远都改变不了。

不论你多么想要弥补，赎罪，做得再多，都于事无补。

世人永远都只会针对你的错误，一而再，再而三的重复。

哪怕你只做错一次；哪怕你已尽全力去弥补。

人类残酷，现实的态度让我快承受不了了。

我亦了解为何自杀事件重复地发生，即使他们都知道这是个愚蠢的行为……

是人们把他们逼疯的……

我上了一堂课，

也看透了这冷酷的世界……